Work realization for the day: I get easily frustrated and impatient by people not living up to my standards.
Possible drivers: High expectations on self, which I reflect on others as well. Hard on self; never feeling like anything I do is good enough...possibly driven by unmet childhood need for external affirmation.
How to manage: Love self more; accept self more--both the good and bad. Learn to see the good in people vs focusing on what they can do better.
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
And I'm Off!
Yey! I'm off to Bohol tomorrow! Wonderful escape from office stress the past few weeks. Really need to get away and go to the beach...even if it means doing it with my family and loads of crazy kids!
I promise to chill out this entire vacation and not let them get to me--not the overactive kids that take 2 hours to get anything done, not my overly whining dad (sounds just like me!), not any of the control obsessed people in my family (hmmm...really sounds like me!)
Will just let them set the pace, make all the decisions, take all the time they want, make all the changes they need to....I will...flow.
Meanwhile, had dinner last night with Bff and his SO in Glorietta. Place was surreal with so many stores closed, lights not totally on, and a lot less people than I usually see in that place. Had a cheap but old memories-reviving dinner in Yum Yum Tree. I intentionally tried not to enter any stores but since we had to go through Rustan's, ended up buying a new fragrance and beach sandals :( Damn! I have no self-control on these things, especially when they're on sale!
Seriously need to link up with more people. I can't keep depending only on Bff and Jean for my social life! Maybe it's time to join groups?
I promise to chill out this entire vacation and not let them get to me--not the overactive kids that take 2 hours to get anything done, not my overly whining dad (sounds just like me!), not any of the control obsessed people in my family (hmmm...really sounds like me!)
Will just let them set the pace, make all the decisions, take all the time they want, make all the changes they need to....I will...flow.
Meanwhile, had dinner last night with Bff and his SO in Glorietta. Place was surreal with so many stores closed, lights not totally on, and a lot less people than I usually see in that place. Had a cheap but old memories-reviving dinner in Yum Yum Tree. I intentionally tried not to enter any stores but since we had to go through Rustan's, ended up buying a new fragrance and beach sandals :( Damn! I have no self-control on these things, especially when they're on sale!
Seriously need to link up with more people. I can't keep depending only on Bff and Jean for my social life! Maybe it's time to join groups?
Monday, October 29, 2007
Fak!
Ugh...it's 11 AM and I haven't done anything substantial except read about other people's substantial blog lives! Will get out of the house this afternoon! Except my only social offer was to go malling in Shang, which I don't particularly enjoy anymore. Maybe will just meet up with them for dinner or something...Meanwhile, back to the gym alone? How much more substantial is that?
Sunday, October 28, 2007
Weeks In Review
So what's been happening the last few weeks?
1. Now running up to 8k. Unfortunately, was not able to record this in my Nike+ as I got ran over by a stupid cyclist at km 3. Accidentally ended my workout. Was swearing for the next km or so...but it did make go faster! Anyway, targeting to hit 10k in my next major run!
2. Work stress continues, but from unexpected sources. Having a lot of people problems with Criselle leaving by end Nov and some risks of my mgt trainee not passing his revalida. I wish it were just a matter of competency, which is quite manageable. But it seems to be more a behavioral limitation, specifically re: confidence and leadership. I don't know if my hard management style is working...maybe I should try to be more nurturing...?
3. My agency is killing me on this one project I'm handling. I really, really am trying to be patient but I really don't understand why they keep coming back to me with unrevised stuff. I hate having to keep repeating my comments over and over. It's such a waste of time! Next time, will ask them to repeat the comments first so I know if they really get it or they're just nodding their heads!
4. Diet isn't going too well. Have been very bad in the last week or so, since I found out my cholesterol count shot up to 255 and I may need to start taking lipitor! Screw this healthy diet!!! But will still try to eat less carbs and fat for vanity! I sorta feel like my belly is slighly smaller but the damn lovehandles are still there! Aarrrgggh.....I miss my cold beer!
5. I've decided that my focus for my 30th year will be Social and Spiritual development (Year 29 was about Health). Both are grossly lacking in my life right now, considering I've pretty much been by myself this whole weekend. Bad Albert!!! Went to mass though...but really need to reconnect with a spiritual group or go on a retreat very soon....It just feels like my life is too superficial right now and I need to get back to what really matters...
1. Now running up to 8k. Unfortunately, was not able to record this in my Nike+ as I got ran over by a stupid cyclist at km 3. Accidentally ended my workout. Was swearing for the next km or so...but it did make go faster! Anyway, targeting to hit 10k in my next major run!
2. Work stress continues, but from unexpected sources. Having a lot of people problems with Criselle leaving by end Nov and some risks of my mgt trainee not passing his revalida. I wish it were just a matter of competency, which is quite manageable. But it seems to be more a behavioral limitation, specifically re: confidence and leadership. I don't know if my hard management style is working...maybe I should try to be more nurturing...?
3. My agency is killing me on this one project I'm handling. I really, really am trying to be patient but I really don't understand why they keep coming back to me with unrevised stuff. I hate having to keep repeating my comments over and over. It's such a waste of time! Next time, will ask them to repeat the comments first so I know if they really get it or they're just nodding their heads!
4. Diet isn't going too well. Have been very bad in the last week or so, since I found out my cholesterol count shot up to 255 and I may need to start taking lipitor! Screw this healthy diet!!! But will still try to eat less carbs and fat for vanity! I sorta feel like my belly is slighly smaller but the damn lovehandles are still there! Aarrrgggh.....I miss my cold beer!
5. I've decided that my focus for my 30th year will be Social and Spiritual development (Year 29 was about Health). Both are grossly lacking in my life right now, considering I've pretty much been by myself this whole weekend. Bad Albert!!! Went to mass though...but really need to reconnect with a spiritual group or go on a retreat very soon....It just feels like my life is too superficial right now and I need to get back to what really matters...
Saturday, October 13, 2007
4th Run
Yey! Was able to hit 6K and at a super good pace (did 6k at my usual time for a 5k).
In a bit of a funk though as I've been pretty much a loner since yesterday. Folks and Sofy are in Tagaytay and no friends are inviting me out. I can't imagine being home alone for another whole day :( Even solitary people want some company sometimes...
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
Saturday, October 06, 2007
Turning 28
2 birthdays ago, I made a list of things to do before I turned 28. Let's see how many 've actually accomplished...
THINGS TO DO BEFORE I TURN 28
1. Travel More (2 of below):
a. Australia/New Zealand
b. Western Europe
c. East Coast
d. Palawan
Oh shit. Haven't been to any of the above. Was able to go to Bangkok, HK, Singapore and KL though (for work). Will have to get out of ASEAN soon!
2. Learn New Hobbies/Skills:
a. Play better badminton
b. Study Photography
c. Study iMovie and Flash
d. Yoga
e. Wall Climb
f. Swim
D. check F. semi-check. Also became a runner.
3. Be Healthier
a. Eat Better (see Credo)
b. Sleep by 11 on weekdays (stop watching Blind Date!)
c. Gym 3x a week
A and C check!
4. Do More Nature Things
a. Beach every quarter
b. Hike somewhere
c. Dive more!
Ack!!! Haven't been out of the Metro!
5. Be More Spiritual
a. Church every Sunday
b. More active in LD
c. Read spiritual books
d. Pray everyday
e. Read the bible/gospel
My bad :( Really haven't focused on my spiritual life the same way as before. Maybe I'll start with some light spiritual reading...
6. Earn More, Save More
a. Sideline job
b. Save for big spendings
c. Put in bank/investment at least 50% of income
d. Spend more wisely on food, spa, Mac stuff
Clearly not very good at this as I'm living from paycheck to paycheck coz of condo payments. LIfestyle hasn't receded either.
7. More independent
a. Live in own place!!
b. Fix bedroom/bathroom once and for all
I'm buying a condo. That's a start!
8. Better family relations
a. Sunday is family day
Guess who spent Sunday alone?
9. Social Works
a. Volunteer
Does 1 tree planting and GK activity count? :(
10. Finalize Career
a. Teach na!
b. Do “sideline”
Hmmm...not sure if going back to corporate qualifies as finalizing career...I'll say YES.
11. Social Life
a. Go out with St Jude friends
b. Go out with Ateneo friends
c. Go on more dates!
I'm trying!!!
Net, have to improve on 1) Spiritual; 2) Family; 3) Social Works; 4) Nature; 5) Finances. These will be my priorities now that I'm...gulp...30!
THINGS TO DO BEFORE I TURN 28
1. Travel More (2 of below):
a. Australia/New Zealand
b. Western Europe
c. East Coast
d. Palawan
Oh shit. Haven't been to any of the above. Was able to go to Bangkok, HK, Singapore and KL though (for work). Will have to get out of ASEAN soon!
2. Learn New Hobbies/Skills:
a. Play better badminton
b. Study Photography
c. Study iMovie and Flash
d. Yoga
e. Wall Climb
f. Swim
D. check F. semi-check. Also became a runner.
3. Be Healthier
a. Eat Better (see Credo)
b. Sleep by 11 on weekdays (stop watching Blind Date!)
c. Gym 3x a week
A and C check!
4. Do More Nature Things
a. Beach every quarter
b. Hike somewhere
c. Dive more!
Ack!!! Haven't been out of the Metro!
5. Be More Spiritual
a. Church every Sunday
b. More active in LD
c. Read spiritual books
d. Pray everyday
e. Read the bible/gospel
My bad :( Really haven't focused on my spiritual life the same way as before. Maybe I'll start with some light spiritual reading...
6. Earn More, Save More
a. Sideline job
b. Save for big spendings
c. Put in bank/investment at least 50% of income
d. Spend more wisely on food, spa, Mac stuff
Clearly not very good at this as I'm living from paycheck to paycheck coz of condo payments. LIfestyle hasn't receded either.
7. More independent
a. Live in own place!!
b. Fix bedroom/bathroom once and for all
I'm buying a condo. That's a start!
8. Better family relations
a. Sunday is family day
Guess who spent Sunday alone?
9. Social Works
a. Volunteer
Does 1 tree planting and GK activity count? :(
10. Finalize Career
a. Teach na!
b. Do “sideline”
Hmmm...not sure if going back to corporate qualifies as finalizing career...I'll say YES.
11. Social Life
a. Go out with St Jude friends
b. Go out with Ateneo friends
c. Go on more dates!
I'm trying!!!
Net, have to improve on 1) Spiritual; 2) Family; 3) Social Works; 4) Nature; 5) Finances. These will be my priorities now that I'm...gulp...30!
Thursday, October 04, 2007
My 1st Official Run
Did it in the Fort last night, despite the drizzle. Would have run faster if I didn't have to dodge potholes and killer buses. Some learnings though...
1. Change to workout clothes before going to the site. Not very easy to dress up in the car in the middle of the parking lot.
2. Bring extra clothes, which I totally forgot to do so I couldn't change my shirt!
3. Eat carbs before the run.
4. Be prepared with water.
5. Wear a bright colored shirt. Otherwise, potential roadkill!
Really want to buy more running shirts and shorts but can't afford them right now :(
Tuesday, October 02, 2007
Zzzzzzzzzz
It's so dark and rainy...don't really want to work. Just waiting for 6-7pm so I can leave the office.
Haven't been particularly inspired to work lately. Have just been coming in for the sake of, and spend the time counting hours til I can leave. Been a very good boy though, health wise. Have been going to the gym pretty regularly, at least 2-3x a week. Was also able to run around 4km last Sunday despite the crazy rain.
Have also started my semi-health diet...limited simple carbs and saturated fats. After 1 week of pain and suffering, honestly don't feel that much healthier or lighter or slimmer...just have a constant gnawing pain in my gut from lack of rice :(
But also proud of my level of discipline. Have been faced with multiple parties, expensive Japanese dinners, Haagen Dazs ice cream...and was able to stop myself from eating :)
BTW, bought a birthday gift to myself already, or should I say, gifts. In the spirit of taking my running seriously (best excuse!), got myself an ipod nano 8gb and the nike+ ipod kit! Haven't been able to try them out yet as rains kept pouring this AM and I didn't wake up! Grrrrrr....no way will I inaugurate them via a treadmill!
1 hour to go and I'm freeeeeeeeeeee!
Haven't been particularly inspired to work lately. Have just been coming in for the sake of, and spend the time counting hours til I can leave. Been a very good boy though, health wise. Have been going to the gym pretty regularly, at least 2-3x a week. Was also able to run around 4km last Sunday despite the crazy rain.
Have also started my semi-health diet...limited simple carbs and saturated fats. After 1 week of pain and suffering, honestly don't feel that much healthier or lighter or slimmer...just have a constant gnawing pain in my gut from lack of rice :(
But also proud of my level of discipline. Have been faced with multiple parties, expensive Japanese dinners, Haagen Dazs ice cream...and was able to stop myself from eating :)
BTW, bought a birthday gift to myself already, or should I say, gifts. In the spirit of taking my running seriously (best excuse!), got myself an ipod nano 8gb and the nike+ ipod kit! Haven't been able to try them out yet as rains kept pouring this AM and I didn't wake up! Grrrrrr....no way will I inaugurate them via a treadmill!
1 hour to go and I'm freeeeeeeeeeee!
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