More Cambodia Pics

Tons more pics. Just go to my Friendster account.

Meanwhile, Manila is in chaos again given Sen. Trillanes' 2nd takeover attempt, this time in the Manila Pen. Dear God, please resolve this soon...I now officially regret having voted for him.

F-You!

Didn't go to work today. Wasn't feeling too energetic and anyway, not much urgent stuff for me to do. A good way to recharge and recollect self before the start of holiday stress. Strange, but even the weekend cocooning didn't help much to invigorate me. Still feel very fatigued and listless.

It probably didn't help that my subordinate told me I was the reason she's resigning! It sucks to be accused of being an immature and disrespectful boss as it speaks more about you as a person than as a manager. While there was definitely a grain of truth to all the things she was saying, I thought a lot of it was unfair and reflective more of her own issues than mine. In any case, I really tried to be mature during that whole painful conversation and just focused on what both of us can learn from the experience. But deep inside, I really just wanted to shake her and tell her that she wouldn't have faced my wrath so many times if she just did her job better!

Also got majorly pissed by the fact that she didn't say anything to anyone until 1 day before she left. That's when she told not my boss, but the Marketing and HR directors! I didn't think it was very fair of her to do that especially to my boss, who is now probably seen negatively as not having managed the situation earlier. Bea gave a great analysis, saying because of her non-confrontational nature, she's crafted this situation as a means to express how she really feels without needing to say so. Well get with the program, girl!

Anyway, God has a wicked sense of humor, as I was coincidentally having dinner in the same resto as her farewell party with her office friends. That was majorly uncomfortable, so I just drank my beer and ignored her the best I could!

Just feel better that I'm not the only one who's experienced this "sabotage" drama with her. Plus I don't have to go to her despedida this afternoon and be all plastic, which I so can't stand to do.

Focusing on the positive, learn to be a better boss. Empower and inspire. Don't let sucky work piss me off too much. Don't be bitchy. Try not to gossip too much, talk gets around pretty quickly. Focus on people's good traits.

In the meantime--F U!

Whine Whine Whine

Still having major problems with one of my people. This is super stressing me out, as I'm not sure he can still improve significantly by his revalida this December. First time I've ever had this problem with a trainee. I keep worrying about this all the time, even while I was having my massage!

Meanwhile, still so tired all the time. Really just want to curl up in bed and sleep one whole day. It's probably the amount of energy I spend on each and every project I'm working on which depletes me completely by the middle of the day.

Can't wait for my Nov 30 Bantayan vacation!

Some Pics

More to come soon...

Is only for now! (Sex!)

Super dead tired at work given the hectic pace last week. Still haven't posted the Siem Reap pics, will hopefully do so tonight. Meanwhile, have to prepare for Business Reviews this Friday...ackkkkk...sometimes I'm so sick and tired of all the bureaucracy of corporate life.

Was listening to Avenue Q on my whole flight yesterday. Realized I have to shift my song from "It Sucks to be Me" to "For Now"

PRINCETON:
Why does everything have to be so hard?

GARY COLEMAN:
Maybe you'll never find your purpose.

CHRISTMAS EVE:
Lots of people don't.

PRINCETON:
But then- I don't know why I'm even alive!

KATE MONSTER:
Well, who does, really?
Everyone's a little bit unsatisfied.

BRIAN:
Everyone goes 'round a little empty inside.

GARY COLEMAN:
Take a breath,
Look around,

BRIAN:
Swallow your pride,

KATE MONSTER:
FOr now...

BRIAN, KATE, GARY, CHRISTMAS EVE:
For now...

NICKY:
Nothing lasts,

ROD:
Life goes on,

NICKY:
Full of surprises.

ROD:
You'll be faced with problems of all shapes and sizes.

CHRISTMAS EVE:
You're going to have to make a few compromises...
For now...

TREKKIE MONSTER:
For now...

ALL:
But only for now! (For now)
Only for now! (For now)
Only for now! (For now)
Only for now!

LUCY:
For now we're healthy.

BRIAN:
For now we're employed.

BAD IDEA BEARS:
For now we're happy...

KATE MONSTER:
If not overjoyed.

PRINCETON:
And we'll accept the things we cannot avoid, for now...

GARY COLEMAN:
For now...

TREKKIE MONSTER:
For now...

KATE MONSTER:
For now...

ALL:
But only for now! (For now)
Only for now! (For now)
Only for now! (For now)
Only for now!

Only for now!
(For now there's life!)
Only for now!
(For now there's love!)
Only for now!
(For now there's work!)
For now there's happiness!
But only for now!
(For now discomfort!)
Only for now!
(For now there's friendship!)
Only for now (For now!)
Only for now!

Only for now! (Sex!)
Is only for now! (Your hair!)
Is only for now! (George Bush!)
Is only for now!

Don't stress,
Relax,
Let life roll off your backs
Except for death and paying taxes,
Everything in life is only for now!

NICKY:
Each time you smile...

ALL:
...Only for now

KATE MONSTER:
It'll only last a while.

ALL:
...Only for now

PRINCETON:
Life may be scary...

ALL:
...Only for now
But it's only temporary

Ba-dum ba-dum
Ba-dum ba-dum
Ba dum ba-dum
Ba-da da da da
ba-da da-da da da-da
Ba-dum ba-da, ba-dum ba-da
ohhhh-

PRINCETON:
Everything in life is only for now.

"Tiger" Show

Just watched a Thai girl show in Patpong. I will never be the same again.

Freakin Let Go Already!

How can someone as rational as me not be able to fully let go of something that ended 3 years ago?